Memories Taste Eternal

I must keep reminding myself of this


By: Matt Edwards, in honor of our friend Rob Hancock and his poem “Today, I Run.”

All italicized lines are lyrics from Tool songs, Rob’s favorite band.


yesterday, I recovered

I sipped cold beer through chapped lips
and let my mind wade through its current
visualizing the next idyllic race
grinning
I just want to start this over

I foam rolled the length of my IT band 
and pressed a novelty landmine into my glute meat
digging through my old muscles, looking for a clue
because that kind of pain is my salvation 
broken now but faith can heal

I stretched myself into cats and cows and dogs
never feeling more calm, comfortable, and at home
than when posing as a child
a warrior
I’ll move, to heal, as soon as pain allows, 
so we can reunite, and both move together

today, I train

I pack color coordinated running clothes 
into a shoestring backpack
before work, before the sun thinks to spill over the mountains
ruled by will alone
because I wanna know what I’ve been hiding in my shadow
or at least that’s how I answer their questions

I solidify the workout in my head 
as I skip and lunge and—
delay the inevitable
I ask my body holding me if it’s ready
and a groan of tedium escapes me
I tell it, “you’re just here for me to use
two miles in, it warms, it concedes,
as if together we are choosing to be here right now

and with my feet upon the ground 
I lose myself between the sounds

now is my time
to contemplate what I’ve been clinging to

I enter a circle of fluorescent singlets and smiling faces
to start every Saturday morning
and release a sigh that seems to say “so glad that I have found you

as the circle unfurls and breaks 
into pace groups built on a humble premise of solidarity
that what you need is someone strong to guide you
I reach[…] out to embrace whatever may come

inevitably, someone begins to push the pace
I swallow hard
my breath becomes hesitant 
but then the cadence of a dozen feet pull me in
and a voice tells me to “aim your body heavenly”
and my fear begins to fade

I wanna feel the change consume me
what’s coming through is alive

tomorrow, I will race

I will step into the kaleidoscope of a corral 
to survey the competition
and when we’re called to the starting line
I will barely remember who or what came before this precious moment
then the gun’s sound will instantly transform 
months of dreaming into a reality
wedged between the mystery of preparation and outcome

miles in I’ll be riding the crests and troughs of confidence
realizing the futility of thinking I could see into the future
feeling the difference between experience and preparation
then I’ll remember that over-thinking, over-analyzing separates the body from the mind
that I must hold on, stay inside
embrace this moment
breathe

I will eventually come to a deciding moment:
to keep racing, or to simply run
to “win” is to make the tougher choice
to push it, to feel the full experience

at this moment I will recite an incantation:
“all this pain is an illusion
surviving is my only friend
recognize this as a holy gift”

and this will lift my head, urging me to cross the line

Today, I Run

Today, I run.

I run for health. For that calm alertness to follow. Sometimes it’s controlled, deliberate and precise. Other days, done with abandon — the clock be damned! Just go! Push! Whatever comes, I will be high all day. Work and conversation smoother, food tastier, slumber a bit sweeter. Its own reward.

I run because that is the time to simply be. Time when there is no room to lament the past; no time to worry about the future. No time to call or sit or text or email. This is the time, my time, to move, to breathe, to strive. To struggle. To count, tally, record. To embrace the gift of being.

To send that primitive message to the mind: That we moved today. We wandered, pursued, hunted. We were chased, maybe. And we survived. Like those before us, who made us, who are us. We ran.

And we might need to be just a little faster, go a little farther tomorrow. So, make sure we’re ready. Adapt. Make us go faster, farther.

So tomorrow, I run.

2020 Spring Training Camp

Come join the Boise Area Runners on May 1-3 at the McCall Outdoor Science School (MOSS) in McCall for a weekend of running, learning, and fun!

The camp is geared for beginning and experienced runners alike. Our goal is to help you improve all aspects of your running. It will feature dynamic presentations and interactive sessions covering:

  • Nutrition
  • Race planning
  • Yoga
  • Injury prevention and treatment
  • Training
  • Running safety
  • And much more!

No camp experience would be complete without fun runs, a movie night, and social time to socialize.

Our Spring Training Camp will be held at the University of Idaho’s MOSS campus, located inside Ponderosa State Park. Accommodations will be the campus rustic bunkhouses (think childhood summer camp!). MOSS will provide bottom sheets, but you are required to bring your own bedding, linens, and toiletries. The bunkhouses are heated and quite comfortable and accommodate 8 per room. Please note the bunkhouses are co-ed and individual accommodations may not be possible. If you have questions, please contact the organizers. Recently built bathroom and shower facilities are located on site, so no need to fear a cold shower or bathing in the lake (unless you want to)!

All meals during the camp are provided. When you sign up, be sure to indicate any dietary restrictions (vegetarian/vegan and/or gluten intolerance) and the awesome staff at MOSS will do their best to accommodate.

Come have fun, learn tips to enhance your running at any level, and meet up with a great group of runners!

Space is limited, so register early!